I have been incredibly happy.
Things are finally falling into place. There’s really no way for me to describe how incredibly blessed I feel right now. College, family, friends, life, it all seems to be working out.
The last time I had an argument with my parents was months ago.
The last time I hung out with my friends was earlier today.
The last time I laughed was approximately a minute ago.
There’s so many things that are making me happy. I can’t believe that everything is actually happening to me. I must have played a lucky card somewhere along the line or my wishes finally got processed by the wish factory and came true. Although I am still terrified of what’s going to happen once I graduate high school, I’m perfectly content as of now.
Some things I should probably address:
1) I quit track: I miss running. I really do. I miss my teammates and friends. I miss long runs that are filled with interesting conversations, I miss the feeling of dying happily at the end of a hard workout in the locker room with the other girls, I even miss going to meets for an entire Saturday just cheering people on at the top of my lungs. But I knew I couldn’t make the time for everything. I love running, and while running on my own is nowhere as fun, it’s something I do.
2) A person: This one person has been making me the happiest person. I’m so thankful that this person has decided to be a part of my world. There’s no dull moment when this person is around. Every time this person picks me up–butterflies. Every time we talk–sparks. It’s just every little thing this person does for me and everything we do together. I feel like this person has been making me a better individual. And while i’m not sure where this is going to lead as we will be a few thousand miles apart for college, I know what this feeling is.
3)College: Speaking of a few thousand miles. I’m staying in California for school. At least for the first 2 years. I’m still waiting on some of the UC schools but I’m happy with what I got so far. I have decided to attempt a double major in Business and Sociology. I don’t know where those degrees may lead me and if they’ll work out at all, but I’m genuinely interested in them so maybe something good will come of it.
There’s 3 month and 11 days until graduation.
I’m not ready to say goodbye to everything.
I’m ready to say hello to everything.